Tuesday, June 29, 2010


i sit here listening to "dark blue" by jack's mannequin playing through my phone into my headphones.
i was too lazy to:
take a shower
put on some presentable clothes {i.e. not pajamas}
walk about 125 ft to my car
unlock and open the door
grab my ipod
then walk the 125ft back to the apartment.

luckily i remembered i had headphones and tunes on my phone.

"have you ever been alone in a crowded room"


speaking of de.lish.. i satisfied my craving for new bras {plus a few shirts, p.jay bottoms, and a cute nighty [yes, mom. i bought a nighty.] don't judge me} and sweet factory candy.
now all that's left is auntie anne's pretzel nuggets and a giant, warm, cozy hug from monsieur.N.
1 week,1 day and he'll be here!

random thought:
i want to live in a ranch home.
but not a desert ranch home like the ones you find in the valley in arizona..
like the ones in colorado or just in lush areas where there's colors in the fall.
the only problem with that is snow and the freezing cold.
and i want a few dogs like this little guy:
and last:

 and i want horses and at least 1 cow.
it would be awesome.
yeah.. i'm kind of a nerd. haha.

 and i want quads.
monsieur.N wants dirt bikes too.
and i want a garden.
and lots of flowers.

okay. enough day dreaming.
time to get back to watching my favorite 19 month old kiddos. :]

Saturday, June 26, 2010

in the summer sun

coming home in 1 day less than 2 weeks. {for those of you bad with math, 1 week and 6 days, or another way to put it: 13 days.} pure goodness.

i'm making a summer.sun list of things that HAVE to be done before the summer is over.

{one}:  hang out with my BFF alison. seriously. mandatory.
{two}: go to the lake with [monsieur.N]
{three}: design my college bedroom. mhmm. {by.the.way i am officially going to MCC. wewt!}
{four}: look for a "real job" {meaning i get a paycheck every other week} for college.
{five}: get a sketchbook.
{six}: bake.
{seven}: take pictures for myself. not for anyone else.
{eight}: have a photoshop playing splurge.
{nine}: blog out all of these post ideas in my head. {my brain is very busy trying to retain this info}
{ten}: craft like crazy.
{eleven}: practice sewing.

post ideas {so i don't forget}:
|one| once a week post pictures based on one theme/item/whatev. it inspires me to be creative.
|two| once a week post collages of my fav. fashions and outfits i crave.
|three| crafts
|four| post some personal awesome photos that i will be taking. :]
|five| i can't remember what else i wanted to blog about now. oh well. haha.
while writing this, i decided to see what i could find around the apartment that was interesting.

jess, nic's sister, has been working on crafts and i've been helping and it's inspired me to sew something. so when i get back, i will practice my sewing skills. {update: added that on my summer.sun list}


my cute new planner.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

feeling inspired to write lists..

i want:
1. to be daring. i need some excitement in my life. {that is why i will be bleaching my hair in a few weeks. don't worry, not the scary kind of bleach that makes people think "ho", the cute kind of honey blonde like reese witherspoon}
2. sweet factory candy. i haven't been there in a million years.
3. aunt anne's pretzel nuggets. to die for.
4. VS bras, the simple, plain, two pack that includes white and black.
5. a nice long hug from Monsieur N. it is magical. no joke.
6. to be motivated. i've had a lot of ideas running through my head.. but need the motivation to get me to do it.
7. to be more creative, especially in photography. i don't want to be traditional, and that's all i've been doing lately.
8. to see my mommy {you're welcome mom. :]P haha}

i am:
mostly happy.
slightly bummed.
kind of relieved.
really tired.
very much in love.

the end.

Friday, June 11, 2010

bona fide genius

me me me.
yes, that is right. i. am. awesome.
just kidding.

but since graduation i have been partying it up.
okay.. not really.
i've just been spending all my time with monsieur N.
recently i've moved to california for the summer.
to watch babies.
it's kind of stressful.. it's hard taking someone else's kids.
i've been getting homesick.. but i'm hoping it will get better after a couple weeks.

but monsieur N goes home soon.. i don't want that day to come. :[
except he's discovered that there are places to play basketball around here...
so, once again, basketball takes priority over me.
at least that's what it feels like.

well... i've seen better days..
but hopefully it will get better

i don't want to go to college.
i especially don't want to go to EAC anymore.
i don't want to make my own major decisions.
i hate growing up.