where i belong

everywhere i go.

there's his mocking face.

tormenting me with remembrance.

oh the path of memory lane...

the words sound so sweet.

but in truth, it's the nightmare.

he's there in faces of friends.

in those who's flirting glances torture my inner soul.

in the brother of my love.

so hideous is that thought.

one once said

"they stay in your thoughts for a reason"

is that reason to bring me fear?

or stab my chest

forming a gaping hole

exposed. empty.

but alas, soon true love will return

here to wrap me in those warm arms

hearing his heart beat against my aching thoughts.

drowning them out for none to hear

not even i

succumbing into a deep emotional sleep.

that i'd rather not be woken from

for that is where i belong