Not what I expected..

I've never been told I sound like a dying animal while singing..
until tonight... Gee.. Thanks dad. I'll go put that one in my "I want to slit my wrists but that's bad and I don't do that, so I write down what makes me feel that way" box.

He was being nice yesterday... When he said that we can have my future wedding reception in our backyard after we get it all pretty. He was describing the landscaping he wants to do and it sounds so gorgeous... So.. I'm excited.. even though I still have a while..

ANYWHO..

Guess what!
I might be taking senior pictures for the school my mom works at. It'll be $25 per student. SWEET!
The bad thing is that there's only 10-12 seniors.
It's a tiny school. They're expanding though.
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HOMECOMING is this weekend! YAY! Seniors in Honor Choir are singing the national anthem.
Go us!
After the game we're doing part of the day (at night) activity and going to the box maze in Lehi and drinking hot chocolate.
my favorite. :]
Then Saturday we're going to do pictures, group and couples(which I'm taking.. it'll be interesting being in the group pictures and taking them...? Good thing for awesome helpers!)
Then carving pumpkins.
Then eating dinner.
Then trick-or-treating.
Then going to the dance.
Then going to Jeff's house to play games.
(That's the most recent plans I've heard. Don't know if it'll change..? And Nic never tells me anything. lol. Btw... He still hasn't asked. Slacker. But he's my slacker and I love him.)

The bad thing about all of homecoming is that it'll be a big group.
I loathe big groups.. Really.. It gets loud and annoying when you get all of our friends together.. but I'll deal, because I love them anyways.

I suppose I'm done rambling.
If I think of anything else... I'll post a new blog.. Since I know I have blog stalkers that'll just LOVE to read new ones.
*cough* Kymber*cough cough*
:P

<3>

busy busy busy

Wanna know what I've been up to lately?

EVERYTHING.

First, I've been practicing my photo skills. Wanna see?
of course you do.


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And that's not even all of it! I still have to edit the photoshoots from the last 2 pictures. Along with 2 others that I haven't even edited ANY pictures for.
I AM SO BEHIND!

And tomorrow, I'm shooting my first wedding! REJOICE! It's finally here!
oh dear oh dear.
And with all of this.. I'm stressing myself out . a lot.
AND everyday I end up crying at least once.

Hmm.. I did something that's a very very big deal..
Here's what I said on Facebook:

"it's really hard to forget the past.. even just parts of it. but so far i've managed to forget pretty much everything about living in the hell hole.. all the bad stuff at least.. but it's not the forgetting part that's the hardest. it's letting go, which i've finally done tonight. i will never go back.. ever. i'm through with it. even though there is still some of the good kinds of friends, i will never go back to visit.. i'll have to see them in other towns, at other times..

so mom, if you read this.. if you and dad ever decide to go visit.. know that i refuse to tag along and go through the pain again."

Really.. FINALLY. I did it.. and man do I actually feel worry free and happy. Like truly happy.. that's a first in a very very long time.

sigh... relief.

I think I still have a lot more to say.. But I need to go do some important stuff..
a.k.a..
laundry which I haven't done for a few weeks...
ermm.. eww.
and getting ready to go make jewelry for homecoming.. thank you to Kymber. :]
and.. that's about it.

adios

OH P.S.
I GOT CONTACTS FOR THE FIRST TIME IN THE HISTORY OF ME. <3 p.s.s. Lauren commented on my blog about the owl.. I pretty much felt.. AWESOME for a little while. :P olive.juice If you want to see more of my work. Check out my facebook fan page (I don't have a website yet. :/ that's next on my necessities list).
There's also pricing on the fan page under "Info" If you're interested. :]

I have a lot to update on! but...

I don't have time to do it tonight. haha.
but look what I learned to make with symbols!!

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it's an owl!!
:]