What is my problem?!

I am a very angry and moody person... I'm not a girl who has fun. I obviously don't show it directly towards people because I don't try to be a jerk towards someone... but.. If I were a mean person, there would be at least 5 girls on my "I wish I could slap you in the face for hitting on/flirting with my boyfriend when he's OBVIOUSLY holding my hand and I AM his girlfriend" list.

Why do I have to be dating someone as hot and good looking as he is... I was only in for trouble since I get jealous.. Honestly.. I see it every day... girls hitting him --flirting-- and smiling like, "Oh my gosh I'm so blonde and ridiculously pathetic for flirting with you right when your girlfriend is standing here and I know she's your girlfriend HAHA (in her pathetic girly giggle)." And I guess he doesn't notice or something.. because it looks like he flirts back, even though I know he doesn't mean it in that way.. but it still bugs me. UGH! I'm so retarded!!!

Oh well.. He's amazing.. and ALL mine.. and I WILL marry him someday. Just you flirty little gigglers watch. YOU CAN'T HAVE HIM AND YOU NEVER WILL. Hahaha.. Okay.. Sorry.. I guess I'm still annoyed from the football game last night -- I don't like standing in the hotpocket at football games.. yet I still do anyways.. I wish I could just sit off in another section like a normal person and watch and cheer when I actually know what's going on.

Hmm.. Well last weekend I went on a date where we all dressed up and went to the park.. I took a bunch of pictures on my new camera (BTW-- I GOT MY NEW CAMERA!!!!!!!!!!!!) but I took all the pictures in RAW format and photoshop isn't letting me open them as RAW files. It's stupid... So I was going to upload them on here, but can't. Lame.


Well...

TODAY'S TO DO list:
-clean my room
-clean my bathroom
-get some school supplies that I still don't have
-other chores
-bake turtle brownies
-go to jessica's birthday party


Sounds like a fun day, right??
Yeah.. Sure.

Well, off to go get started.
Adios.

A miracle happened tonight...

Today was such a complicated day. I was so up and down with my moods, everything set me on edge. I was so upset with everything. Then I'd be happy, then I'd get upset again. We went up to Payson today and just had a blast, besides my issues. But on the way home, I had lightened up a bit. Then we'd gotten home to drop off Caleb, Justine, and Charity so Caleb could take them home. Mom had picked up the mail before taking Becca home. We'd driven half way to Becca's house when I heard my mom gasp and she started reading a letter that had been sent in the mail.. I didn't know what was going on until my name was said. Dad had pulled to the side of the road while mom read the following:

"Attention Love Family: This money is to be used to help get Sarah a camera and/or the gear to go with it or to send her to camera workshops. Signed, The Anonymous Ninja."

The letter came with $500 enclosed, just enough to pay for the rest of my camera.. It was sent from Gilbert, that's all I know. I started bawling. Then Mom cried with me. Becca didn't realize why I was crying so hard so I told her that's all I needed to get my camera.. and she was like "Oh Sarah, I'm so happy for you!"

It's funny that unless whoever sent that money reads this.. they will never know how grateful I am for what they've done. I will forever owe these wonderful people who've done this for me.. I can't wait to meet them in the after-life to thank them personally for the happiness they've brought to me. Photography is my passion... and whoever gave me this opportunity to start working on it earlier and to ease my burden.. I will always remember.

And I know this experience has come from paying my tithing. Really.. I've gained such a strong testimony of tithing from this. God really does bless those who pay tithing and give a portion back to Him that He gives to us. And it's just not tithing.. He blesses everyone who obey his commandments. I think that's also a main reason why I've felt so cranky and moody lately... Because I haven't been obeying him as well as I should be, so He was showing me that by simply obeying.. I can be happier. Now I'm absolutely happy for all the blessings I have-- My amazing family and friends, my parents and the great and wonderful teachers and people they are, the material things I have, and just EVERYTHING in my life. I'm so grateful to God.

:]

Just wanted to share some lyrics from an amazing song:

I Will Not Take My Love Away by Matt Werz
(My favorite Christian song ever)
"I will not take my love away
When praises cease and seasons change
The whole world turns the other way
I will not take my love away.

I will not leave you all alone
When striving leads you far from home
And there's no yield for what you've sown
I will not leave you all alone.

I will give you what you need
In plenty or in poverty
Forever, always, look to me.
I will give you what you need.

I will not take my love away."